Love and moving on

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1. Sometimes I feel it is impossible to have a good connection with the people I love the most.They seem to forget the pain I have been through [mentally] and physical pain.They seem to forget I have an illness do they care?I love all of them,but I can no longer say that about my husband I love him as his wife because we have been married for so long.Our son is a blessing.My husband is so very lucky to have us as I was so very lucky at one time to have him.I no longer feel the butterflies in my stomach.I here him coming down the dirt road instead of butterflies I cringe.The thought of him walking in the door almost makes me sick.I just want to vanish until he goes to bed.We no longer share our bed room.I have mine and he has his.We have had for quite sometime.I always told our son Ryan do not ever worry about your dad and I getting a divorce I do not believe in it.We will just have different bedrooms.One night it happened.That huge fight.That I try to forget.As we where moving our personal stuff back and forth.our son pretended to make a joke out of it.However he sensed the true love between his dad and me had somehow vanished.I am sure we all will never forget that night.Now 3 years later we still have our own bedrooms.Every thing I do is wrong in my husbands eye’s.I either talk to much,stay up to late interfering with his sleep,or I am sleeping to much,we dont have anything in this house to eat,or you talk to your mom to much,your mom and sister are putting things in your head,You dont need to help Brit out.let her figure out something for herself.It doesn’t matter what I do its all wrong.He has more complaints than you could shake a stick at.Nothing makes him happy,unless its about sex.I use to feel like a cinderlla hore.Now I wear a chastey belt.I cannot stand for him even to touch me.He continues to get worse with age it is impossible for me to do any thing right.This has caused me more pain than I need.I told him last night I was coming out with a new perfume called evil passion just for him.Its a fight to mention God’s name in our home .It is a shame such love is now turned into obsession,from him.I feel like a locked up animal.Every thing I see,touch,talk,or any kind of out side contact I make I am going to have to go stick my head in a corner.How long am I going to be grounded?Where is true love in this picture,obvious I can’t find it or am looking in the wrong place.I seem to loose every thing or forget where I put it.That is a fact or I am tearing something up.When I vacum ,the vacum usually breaks.,I drop things,I use to ruin clothes when I did laundry sometimes I still do.I have began to think its time to move on.If this is his way of showing his love for me,its completely different than my version.Top it off I pay the majority of the bills.Which I ever thought much about.Now I am seeing that way completely different.I must not let him suck out my indepth love I have for GOD.Rod cannot help all of his bad ways .He just does not know about GOD’S FAMILY YET. I must stay strong and learn better how to subtract them.My true faith in GOD and being able to face these demons will soon rid them far away.Remember you where given the true knowledge on how to out run that S.O.B the big D.Iwill continue to run away from any evil .nothing is in stone, that is why I will always look behind me in front of me and both ways.for you never know who you might run into.There for I will keep my body protected with GODS armor on at all times.It could mean saving your life,soul,and mind.GOD is still teaching me his powerful ways.He knows I will never learn all of them,I guess that is why we all need to make the same contact in order to make the right connection .Aswell as to share our connections .GOD wants all of his people to be saved.My advice get connected time is at hand.The grandfinally is about to take place.Do not be left in the dark.I heard it gets really spooky,and it just might be the HOLY GHOST .. OR HE might be wearing a permanent monster mask.For me I will stand toe to toe for Jesus.just like he stood toe to toe for many.I guess that is why my grandma ‘s old saying was I scratch your back I will scratch your back.

2. Please let me know if this is a first comment made for this wonderful box.I cannot understand.why there is not so many people responding to such amazing,wonderful website I told a close friend about it she said therei s so many.I guess that goes to show God has so many things to offer,However it is our choice to make it happen.My advice make it happen.I sure don’t want to get on the bad side.yOU BETTER BE GOOD FOR GOODNESS SAKE SANTA CLAUSE IS COMING TO TOWN HE’S MAKIN A LIST CHECKIN IT TWICE GONNA FIND OUT WHO’S NAUHGTY AND NICE SANTA CLAUSE IS COMIN TO TOWN.[THE BIG GUY IN THE SKY ]AS ELVIS PRESELY SONG IS WATCHIN YOU.I THINK WE ALL NEED TO GET OUR EYE ‘S’EXAMINED ALSO SCHEDULE AN EAR LAVAGE.perhaps a complete C.P.E.THAT WILL BRING IN SOME FISH.God don’t want you to be fried or hear you died.HE HAS ENOUGH ANGE’LS TO WATCH OVER.That you futile people have murdered.Whats next?

3. Please email me back.so I know you got it.Tanks Susan

4. A POT OF GOLD COULD NEVER CHANGE MY MIND..GOD’S.FAMILY IS WHERE i WILL BE..I AM NOT PERFECT BUT GOD IS..We are his sons mold.For only GOD is a perfection’s .His only begotten Son was crucified by the worst pain any one could ever have.He died for all oF us.For GOD DOES NOT LEAVE ANY ONE OUT.THEY CHOOSE TO BE LEFT OUT.how would you feel if your only child died this kinda of death? People still dont believe ever one wants to see proof.What more proof do you want.A magic show?IS’NT CHRISTMAS ENOUGH. TO PROVE JESUS IS ALIVE NOW AND FORVEVER.Jesus through YOU.I pray to your Heavenly FATHER THAT I ALSO WILL BE SITTING ON A BENCH MADE OF SILVER AND GOLD WHEN YOUR MOTHER TAKES MY HAND.That will be when I no longer have to pack for a trip.My final day’s are over here on earth.That could of been longer,even forever How ever we have ruined your creation,aswell as your hard work, molding us all just like your son JESUS CHRIST SUPER STAR. I want to be your super star angel.I hope you have a place for me.A little sense of humor can go a long way.Howdy they are all of your six senses.Well JESUS DO YOU THINK YOUR FATHER AND MINE UNDERSTAND I AM AFRAID OF HEIGHTS AND ROLLYCOASTERS.I am ready when you are..This is pretty good now I want be forgeting nothing.,Because I already got rid of my old luggage.THIS SOUNDS FUN ALL NEW SHINEY.i DO NOT EVEN HAVE TO PICK UP AFTER NO ONE ANY MORE.My father.has picked me up .Sorry you better start picking up after yourself.HE’S got the whole world . in his handsHE HAS ALREADY SAVED THE BABIES,I COULD NOT TELL YOU WHAT HE’S GOING TO DO WITH THIS BUNCH OF CRY BABIES.

5. JESUS’S MY BEST FRIEND NOW AND FOREVER

6. Hi Susan, we are reading each and every view you are writing here. And, its really good thing you are able to connect our quotes to your life.

   We will try our level best to write to motivate and inspire you each day.

   Thank you so much for all the love you have for us 🙂

7. MAKE A DIFFERENCE CLEAN YOURSELF UP OR EVEN DRESS YOURSELF UP.YOU SURE DON’T WANT TO STINK.WE STILL HAVE WATER THANK GOD.

   1. Susan you are in my prayers I read your first submit about yourself and husband. Its almost as if I had written it myself. From being 19 to 34 years of age my life was your first submit I never experienced being Cinderella but through the darkness and pain god gave me the gift of a life a daughter….marriage is sacred between two people. But life is a gift from god you was given the gift of a child it is up to you to protect your child from harm not only physical but mental harm you are in a modern day term of domestic abuse mental abuse you have posted yourself your child has seen lost love in your husband but if you like what you hear or not lost love from yourself too. Your situation is making yourself and your husband Rod into people your not. God sometimes see us drown to see us swim. It is up to yourself to swim put armbands on your son !! If it takes a separation then you MUST!!! you are subjecting your gift from god to more harm than good instead of a house n place of darkness control and feeling of unsafe 1 of you must leave show him not a house but a home of sunshine laughter. You named your son and husband in this post. Which shows anger, a cry for help, resentment. Yet depression and scared of change, your other posts show slight revelation in your circumstances. I have walked in your shoes I am clean and in my best dressed take your own advice and show your son how strong your faith is to swim and stand tall in YOUR best dressed show him faith in god does work and show him the STRENGTH it can give to save a person not just get them through darkness of each day to survive…. Save him too instead of subjecting him to what you and your husband are going through . separation from a situation will bring your family closer to make an effort for your son and a strong bond will one day blossom into an unbreakable friendship with your husband. God does work I’m mysterious ways but stop your son from watching you make yourself the victim which hands his dad control. Children are not stupid. I pray you have the wisdom not to bad mouth your sons father as you have done in public. Have faith for others too as well as for yourself. Look after yourself …. God love but swim don’t sink. Your a lovely person xxxx much love Hazel

      1. Thank you for responding back to me.I knew I should have never been acting like a spoiled brat.Trying so hard for some one to jump into my husbands mind and change his way of thinking. .Now that I have pushed the wrong button.That time I intended to.I guess I should have trusted my gut feeling [Do not push that button on face book] I have been so angry with him I just made my finger push the button.Iknow better.Being in the medical field in the past for 20 years.the rule of thumb is to always read the label of a medication before you give it.then re.read before giving it then again after administering to the patient.

      2. ME AND BUTTON’S AND VACUM CLEANERS JUST DO NOT GET ALONG.I WAS NOT FINISHED EXPLAINING MY SELF.GETTING BACK TO WHERE I ENDED.THE EXPIRATION DATE IS A MUST.ONCE YOU PUT IT IN ,YOU CANT TAKE IT BACK.WELL THAT IS HOW YOU MADE ME SEE THE MISTAKE I MADE.IT IS VERY SIMILAR TO THAT.MY HUSBAND IS IMPOSSIBLE AT TIME’S.I HAVE GOT MYSELF IN A WHIRLWIND OF TROUBLE.PLEASE ACCEPT MY APOLOGY FOR MY WRONG CHOICE OF WORD’S.THERE IS A BREAKING POINT.I AM NOT SEEKING SYMPATHY. I WAS NOT USING MY NOGGIN [MY GRANDMA WOULD SAY]THIS .DO YOU HAVE ANY MORE SUGGESTIONS?I CAN TAKE CRITICISM I WILL SAY THAT.I AM AWARE IF SOME ONE SHOW’S ME .MY MISTAKES I HONESTLY CAN SAY THAT IS ONE OF MY BEST QUALITY’S ABOUT MYSELF TO CONFESS.I HAVE A BIG CONSCIOUS.I WISH ROD WOULD JUST BE ABLE TO JUMP INSIDE MY HEAD.THEN HE WOULD BE PRETTY MUCH BE THE PERFECT HUSBAND.I HOPE YOU GET BACK WITH ME .I HOPE THIS IS MORE ACCEPTABLE.LOVE SUSAN

8. I think this person is very self centered & is using her husband to what she thinks is making her look better. .but a Christian is a follower of christ . .actions speak louder than words..she also seems to be hiding behind god instead of doing what god wants her to do…..

9. You are very mistaken.before you make comments like that you need to be in their shoes.Can you walk in the same size shoe?I am not trying to make myself look better.perhaps I should put some make up on.I have way to much on.would you like to try being a mental abusive husband?Word of advice for in the future.do not judge as you will be judged twice as hard.Answer to GOD not to me .Furthermore you have alot of reading to do.Please let me know after answering to GOD.perhaps you can enlighten me.thank you for your 2 cents

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